Well, I turned 50 (if you did the math you knew that already) and it was anticlimatic. I realize I have spent much of the past 10 years in anticipation of when things would get better. I am just beginning to come to terms with the reality that things are exactly what they are.
Most days I feel the need to think in future terms - someday when my Prince comes, when my pockets overflow, when the world truly lives in peace... Such nice fantasies.
On rare days I face what is right in front of me. I've been reading "The Power of Now"; all about focusing on the present as it is, which ain't really all that bad. I try to remember that. I try to Live out of that.
Easy Greasy...
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Dear Gayle,
HUGE SOFT HUGS.. HI..
you and Gelert were really heavy on my mind last night.. then first thing this morning I recived your message over at Mondays stories..can't tell you how surprised and wonderful I felt..
as I have missed you both..
so much has been going on in my corner of the world.. computer problems.. flu.. and of course the days when one just wants to cover their heads and wish the world would go away.. along with some pleasent but fearful surprises..
I met someone on line.. who takes my breath away.. sometimes to much so.. 'smile'.. and to tell you the truth scares me to death.. .its a strange feeling Gayle.. so many mixed emotions.. we tend to think that when our prince comes on his white horse all will be well with the world.. but it also brings in so many doubts.. at least it has for me.. I just hope that I can make some sence out of what is happening.. truth vs fantasy.. type of thing..
I haven't told anyone this..not even my kids.. your the first who knows.. ( and now anyone else who comes in and reads this.. "smile" ) it feels good to share it with you.. thank you for that.. for some reason I feel that you will understand my joys as well as my fears..
The Power of Now.. I will have to go and check it out.. so much has happend in the year that I started to blog.. you.. Gelert and a few others opened up a whole new door, one that I guess I had closed, or was afraid to open in my life.. you both brought about a freshness in the way I had looked at the world.. you both made me think.. re-evaluate things.. you allowed me into your world..and for that I will be forever greatful..and very blessed..
Right now I don't have the internet.. I am over at my son's using his computer.. I shut off the internet until I can bring down this power bill.. this winter has been so cold.. my bill last month was $700 .. about fainted when I got it.. so it was either power and food.. or power and the internet.. food won.. Smile..
but when I do get on.. I will come and visit you.. again.. I like the looks of your new blog..MSN is nice with its bells and whisles.. but so many problems over there.. here is quiet... less problems with posting..
well, its time for me to go.. again it was a blessing to recive a message from you this morning.. I hope that your day goes smoothly ..and your evening will be soft.. you are in my thoughts.. as well as my prayers..
love ~Hope
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